Only for the Summer?

Was it only for the summer?

The intimate conversations, playful jokes, and random comments, was it only for the summer?

The sweet smiles, glancing at each other across the room, looking in each others eyes, was it only for the summer?

The tickling that was only used as an excuse for us to get close enough to hug or kiss, was it only for the summer?

The conversations over coffee, on the couch, with a movie or a show playing in the background, was it only for the summer?

The healthy debates and the comfortable silences that followed, was it only for the summer?

The talking in the middle of kisses, even if it only consisted of a soft, "Okay", was it only for the summer?

My heart beating a million miles an hour simply being in your presence, was that only meant to last for a moment?

The way you understood me the way no one has before, was that simply a fluke?

How you were able to look in my eyes to read in my heart, body, and soul, was it only because I wanted so desperately to be understood?

The fact that I almost melt everytime I am in your arms, was it only because I so desperately wanted to be held?

Was it only meant to last for a moment?

Our moments on the couch, watching movies and cartoons for hours while cuddling, kissing, and rubbing, did you really want me in your arms for a lifetime or until the summer ends?

When we talked about our future, was it only to entertain my hope?

When you looked in my eyes, were you really wanting to see me, or did you want me only for a season?

When you held my waist, did you see yourself getting closer to me? Or was I simply the only one there?

I suppose the Good Morning kisses were only meant to last for the summer.

Perhaps the Wii competitions we had were only meant to fulfill you until it starts getting cold outside. I'm sure my character will be deleted as soon as Labor Day hits.

Having you rest in my arms, was that only for a passing moment?

When we shared our bathtub and shower moments, was it only because you wanted to test your bathroom with someone?

The passionate kissing and love making, was that only because you wanted someone in your bed on those humid evenings and mornings?

In my heart, I did not want it to last for a summer. Honestly, for the first time, I was not afraid to start loving someone. I simply did it. It was as easy as breathing. Yet, all things are not meant to last forever, no matter how much you want them to. Sometimes your fantasy and reality are two completely different things. Accepting that would only make this transition into the Fall season easier. However, I will always remember our summer. If it is meant to last past the summer, that would be the highlight of my year. If not, then I will have to deal with it, like the loss of a loved one. I suppose I have to accept the fact that things do not last as long as I may want to. Though I was afraid to let people in my heart, you started to break down that wall. You started to inscribe your name through my heart, even if it was only temporary. Though I wanted it to last past the summer, perhaps I was only fooling myself into thinking that you were different from all my past situations. However, once again, I was proven right: Nothing that good lasts forever. I will be alright though. After all, my strength will help me deal with this as I stride through life by myself.

While the summer heat fades away, does that also mean our love will fade away as well? My mind is telling me that I need to see things for what they are. Yet my heart cries out the same question, "Was this only meant to last for the summer?"