I Don't Know How to Say....

It's amazing,
Because I do not know what to say.
Or how to say it.
Which is so unusual for me.
But, I know how I feel.
Yet I cannot say it outloud.
It's one of those moments where you do not know whether to smile or cry.
You bottle up the feelings inside,
Hoping you can pour them all out one day.
Until that day, you do not utter a single word.

I don't know how to say
The way I feel about you.
I know that my soul smile when you are around.
I feel my heart beating so fast,
I think it will fall out of my chest.
No matter what kind of day I am having,
I know that your touch heals me.
But, I still keep my mouth shut.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
I know that no one has been able to replace you.
I find myself comparing every man in my life to you.
Whether they are funny or tough like you.
Whether they make my heart melt.
Whether they make me feel more like a woman.
Somehow, they always come up short.
Never quite matching up to you.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
I know that I get excited to recieve a text or call from you.
I smile to myself and think, "Yes, it's him."
I anwser promptly as possible, because hearing your voice...
Just hearing it,
Makes all the worries fade away.
And your text, always has the sweestest greetings.
That are bound to brighten my darkest days.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But I know that we have never had a fight.
Our disagreements are always light, and challenging.
Never demeaning or disrespectful.
I worry that we never fight with each other.
But I'm glad we only have tight intellectual discussions
That leave us both enlightened.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But I know when something good happens,
You are one of the first people I want to tell.
When something happens to you,
I want to share in that moment with you
Whether it is wonderful or hurtful.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But it drives me nuts
When I don't hear from you.
I yearn to hear from you,
In whatever capacity technology will allow.
While I will settle for a technology hit from you,
I'd rather be in your presence.
So we can touch, kiss, and tussle around.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But you are the epitome of black manhood.
You compliment me in every way.
I won't say you complete me,
Because I complete myself.
But you sure do understand what it means
To be a real man to a real woman.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
I do know that I feel alive when I'm with you.
Each time we are together,
My feelings toward you only intensify.
And my heart hasn't been able to stray away from you.
My mind always tells me to walk away,
But my heart says, "You can't help how you feel about this man."

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But I can see our future together.
With our home, children, and the dogs.
With football parties, family gatherings, and children's play dates.
With the quiet evenings on the couch laying in your arms.
With making love all night.
Ending with us falling asleep with each other.
We are sharing our life together in bliss.
Not perfection, but basking in the happiness of one another.

I don't know how to say,
The way I feel about you.
But I think you are one one.
And maybe one day,
I'll actually be able to tell you
The way I feel about you.