Why bother?

Why do I even bother myself with this?
It seems as though everytime I put in, you are sucking more and more out of me.

Why do I even bother?
It seems like a waste of time thinking anything will become of the two of us.

So I ask myself, why do I even bother?
After all, you cannot make me a priority in your life when I'm constantly making you one of mine.

Why do I even bother?
You are living the good life without me. So you really do not need me.

Why do I even bother?
Because lately all you have been causing me is disappointment and tears.

So, why am I doing this to myself?
I know I deserve to be treated better than this.

So, going back to my original question, why do I even bother?
I seem to be making more of an effor than you are willing to bring, regardless of your flaws.

Why do I even bother?
When you do not realize the jewel right in front of you.

Why do I even bother?
When I could invest my time in someone who is willing to invest their time into me.

Why do I even bother?
Because I know that God wants me to be fully and completely loved.

Why do I even bother?
When I am being sucked to my last will, put to the edge of my hope, and emotionally limping just to be disappointed yet again.

In fact, why am I doing this to myself?
I told myself not to put myself through this again.

Yet here I am,
Waiting for something that will never happen.
Expecting the unexpected.

I don't know if I have anymore to give.
I give so much to others without recieving replinishment.

So, why do I put myself through it?
As if anything is going to change.

Because as far as I can see
It's the same person in a different body.

So, I will continue to ask myself, "why bother?"